.:i.t.o:.

so….. today a family friend brought a bag of clothes to my mom to see if she wanted them.  she said that her daughter doesn’t fit or want the clothes (for whatever reason), most of them are unworn / like new.  she said if my mom find them useful, my mom could keep them.  she said nothing to me.  which make sense kind of… cause her daughters are skinny.  and… i obviously am not.  and everyone knows that my body type is extremely out of the asian body stereotype.

but tonight as my mom and i were looking at the bag of clothes together… i was as giddy as ever like a little kid openning christmas presents on christmas day. taking them out one by one, awaiting of what else was instored in the bag. it was filled in one of those good size nordstrom paper bag.  there were probably 20 pieces of clothing. a good amount of them were kid’s sized clothes. (keep in mind that her daughters are skinny, so they would buy kids size xxl or something when they were younger [it's cheaper too i heard]) some of the other ones are just random pieces of clothing. there was one shirt that was light bright orange with cherries all over it. um… yea. i can see people wearing it in asia, may be… but not here.

at the end of the scrumage… i ended up with 9 piece of clothing. mom 0.  hahah. she didn’t like any of them. she never could have thought that i would be the one who actually found so many things that i liked, and fitted me. i felt like i just came back from macy’s. except i didn’t pay a dime. these clothes are all free….. who doesn’t love free right? i am happy.

but at the same time…. i don’t NEED these clothes.  even tho most of my wardrobe is black…. and these clothes are anything but black. i dunno. i feel like such a hoard. i have the ability to justify why i want to keep each pieces of these clothing. like, “these clothes are not black, i need more variations than black.” or “some of these clothes are nice enough for me to wear to work, they are not printed shirts”. or “i don’t have that many skirts in my wardrobe.”  or the classic and vainest one… “i look good in it.” but at the same time, i know that somewhere out there people can have these clothes. people in china could have these clothes. …..

i have cancelled the comment moderation option…
for a while i didn’t know how to cancel it, then it got really annoying. so i found it.

i still have to find out how to do the rss thing……

[update]:  finally! i guess some layouts just have that rss thing built in… and the one that i had didn’t. that took me long enough to figure it out. =p