“you gotta protect/defend your time with God.”
- matthew west
i heard it one morning on klove radio. for some reason that sounded really profound to me, and just what i needed to hear.
since i have started working, i have all these excuses bombarding my life. “i have work to do,” “i am too tired,” “i should hang out with friends, i have not seen them for awhile,” “i can do that at bible study.” i definitely have neglected my personal time with God. i have slowly drifted away from my relationship with God, the person who i claimed to be the lover of my soul. that neglect has definitely shown within my actions towards the people around me.
i have a vision of all these things (enemies) coming at me, and i have to fight it off with my sword. i am tired. my sword is not sharp enough. i have to fight off these things multiple times. i need a sharper sword. but if i long for a sharper sword, then what more reason do i need to protect and defend my personal time with God? so often i get boggled down or swept away from the temporary things and things that sound remotely exciting, and put my relationship with God at the “back burner” of my mind. it really shows its place in my heart/mind.
“love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.” – mark 12:30
the most important commandment, i have failed to follow. often i do not hesitate to acknowledge that God is loving and gracious. at times i tend to concentrate on that too much, as God has often been withholding His Wrath on me. instead, i have to also acknowledge that He is Holy and just as well. he cannot tolerate disobedience. part of being a loving Father, also means to discipline those He loves. if He does not discipline, how does that show that He cares?
this is a battle. a battle that i am not willing to loose.
