indeed, i have not blogged for ages and centuries as i have been busy. this time i have made myself to blog tonight.
a friend asked me today what i have learned during Sunday School this past week. i failed to recall as it has been a few days from then. as i was just reading a friend’s blog, it reminded me of one of the things that came up for me when i was sitting in the classroom last Sunday morning: stop striving.
wait, what? stop striving. drink and taste in the moment. it is so counter-cultural. not in the sense where you live in the moment and forget the future/eternal stuff. but stop always looking ahead, and thinking of the next thing that you have to do to achieve the “next step” in life. in our culture we are socialized to be “in” with the times so you can hold a decent conversation with coworkers, and you get weird looks as you are not keeping up with trying the latest restaurants and clubs. but as christians, we are called to be different. if we are also running around with our heads cut off, trying to get the newest and the latest along with the rest of the world, then how are we different? are we also tired from all the striving? what are we trying to prove? what are we trying to gain? what good is it that if we gain the whole world and forfeit our souls…
i find myself doing the same thing. perhaps not necessarily with the “happenin” places… but with other stuff. it is so easy for me just to put other things in my life in place of God being the priority. striving for things that i don’t really need to have, in order to gain acceptance by my peers. God has to constantly reminding me that i am already accepted by Him. despite of my sins and transgressions, He gave up His throne and died an ultimate and horrible death, to show me that i am loved and accepted in His eyes. i no longer has to strive for acceptance. i just have to focus on putting Him in the center and build my house on the rock. So when the wind comes, it will not collapsed.
